i’m sorry [name of someone you wronged in the past]
i’ve been thinking of ways that i could apologize to you for being so blind, so proud and so weak for so long. i wanted to send you a postcard (but then i’d have to ask someone you know and then that’d ruin the gesture/i’d die of embarrassment) or make an elaborate ‘something’ (but then i’d be congratulating myself for doing something that all healthy people do) and then thought it might be best to just not ‘be’ in your environment at all, like an atheist who doesn’t believe in [noun] or [noun]. i don’t want to give you another reason to be angry or sad.
i am sorry that i couldn’t see that i [something you were in denial of].
i am sorry that i didn’t ask if [something you should have asked].
i’m so sorry for [open honesty box and REAL TALK].
i am sorry that whenever i saw you by yourself that i never approached you to apologize to you to your face.
i’m not excusing myself for my actions: i want to say that i’m being accountable as a person. no one gave me a lesson about [something that helps you become a better person]. i had to read an article from a friend on Facebook about it to get how much of a pretentious douchebag [feel free to add more descriptors here] i’ve been.
i thought i was doing you ‘good’ by saying “[something paved with good intentions, but leading to your hell]” when i didn’t mean it, putting a band-aid on deep wounds and calling it fixed.
it sucks that i had to learn all of this at your expense.
i want to acknowledge the pain i’ve caused you and i’d like to reconnect with you in a healthy way that is respectful, not slimy, or fucked up.
let me know if you’d like to talk!
i’ll respect your distance otherwise.
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uncertainpursuits asked: i'm very intrigued in your tales of struggling with faith. i have had similar experiences as a child when i had decided that, even though my family made no moves to instill a sense of devotion to any faith, i took it upon myself to attend church weekly. in my child's mind, i had come to the conclusion that to be an "official American" i would need to go to church and follow the predominant religion of our nation. i just wanted to inform you of my great interest in these short anecdotes and that i can identify with them. so while not a question, i felt such a long-winded and self absorbed comment would be more appropriate where it can be viewed in private. -r.t.
your message didn’t go unnotice RT! thank you for sharing and for sharing your vulnerability!
hope you are well!
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